This is a bit off-topic from fibroids and fertility, but keeping in good health is the essential foundation for pursuing those goals, so I thought I would pass this along.
With all the discussion of flu, I remembered from when I lived in Japan that there is a tradition there of gargling with tea to prevent the flu. I even remember hearing about children in school being required to do it.
I looked it up, and it seems that it has been scientifically proven that it's helpful.
http://www.green-tea-health-news.com/flu-prevention.html
http://www.fmltea.com/health/9.htm
http://www.green-tea-health-news.com/cold-flu.html
I'm starting doing this today, and thought I would pass it along to all of you too.
Please take care of yourselves.
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
Monday, April 27, 2009
keeping my chin up
Hello everyone, I want to say thank you again for those of you who left encouraging comments on the last post.
I'm keeping my chin up, and here are the positive things I have been doing:
1. Picked up the card shown at left to put on my desk and cheer me up. Just ordered a few other inspirational ones from the card company's site. Really lovely stuff.
2. Went to see my Psych-K person, with a list of affirmations to work on that I drafted based on things that Walter Makichen pointed out in our consultation. Had a very productive 2 hours session. However, I think I need to give Psych-K a break for now, as I feel like I am a bit affirmationed-out -- feeling like "ok, ok, I love myself already!"
3. Made an appointment with the surgeon to discuss laproscopic myomectomy.
4. Made an appointment to get my mercury amalgam dental fillings out. (More on this later)
5. As a treat for myself, signed up for a 3 day yoga retreat at Mount Madonna. Have always wanted to go there for a retreat: http://www.mountmadonna.org/live/WEI-5-15.html
6. Made myself feel better by reading this web page about maternal age and egg quality. Based on results of a special urine test and some other testing done recently (more on this later) my acupuncturist recently upped my supplements which should be beneficial. Have also added DHEA
Sunday, April 26, 2009
two good news and one bad news
Have had a lot going on in the past two days. Two good news and one bad news. Warning, this is a rather long post.
Good news 1:
Good news 1:
I had a consultation on Friday with a well-known clairvoyant named Walter Makichen who specializes in working with couples with infertility problems. He is author of the book Spirit Babies: How to Communicate with the Child You're Meant to Have
which I found very compelling and very helpful, and in my wanting to leave no stone unturned in this journey I wanted to get his input and also of course find out if he could see a spirit baby (spirit of an unborn child) hanging out with me. (This is all a bit more way out than I normally get into, but I picked up the book without knowing what it was about and it really spoke to me…)
He gave me lots of great info and insight (he was dead on about my personality and also my husband’s) and made me feel very optimistic about my chances of being able to have a baby. He gave me some personalized meditations/visualizations, and some suggestions of specific things to work on. The big thing though, that he said over and over in a kind of “wow!” tone of voice, was he was VERY impressed as he said that he can tell that I have done a lot of work on myself to get ready for getting pregnant, that my chakras were all hooked up well, etc. “Whatever you have been doing, it’s really working!”, he said “So these tools I’m giving you now, it’s really just fine tuning.” It's so nice to get some positive confirmation of all the efforts I have been making, that they have not been for naught. And he also said that he saw a spirit baby there, right in the pre-conception position which is the optimal place for it to be, it means it’s already bonding with me, so that is great news. (if you're curious about what this means, I suggest you read the book, it's fascinating...)
I was very impressed with Walter, he was so warm and supportive and perceptive. As part of my work, I coach and counsel people, and from a professional perspective I felt he was truly a first class example of how to advise someone effectively. I also feel like the exercises he gave me really work well. For example, I did one of them the next day when I was at the IVF clinic waiting in the examination room undressed, which normally is very stressful for me, but instead it made me really relaxed.
It was at the IVF clinic that I got the following news:
Good news 2:
The reason I went to the IVF doctor was for my antral follicle count, which they do to see how well your ovaries are likely to respond. He said there were 4-5 in the left ovary, and he couldn’t see the right ovary because a fibroid was in the way but he assumed it had the same number as the left, which would make a total of 8-10. He described this as “pretty good” and based on my looking on the internet, although this is a bit sub-optimal it is way above average for my age so that is something to be happy about I think.
Bad news:
The IVF doctor was not happy with my fibroids. He said, as others have, that there are 4-5 of them. He measured the three largest ones, and said that the biggest was 6.1 x 6.1 cm, the second largest was 4.1 x 4.8, and the third largest was 4.0 x 3.7. These measurements are a LOT larger than the figures that my gyn. gave me a couple of weeks ago. And in fact, never have I had any number over 5.2 for the biggest one, ever. So this was rather a shock, to say the least. He said that he wants them out before doing IVF. He recommended that I see a doctor in S.F. who specializes in doing myomectomy laproscopically so it’s minimally invasive. I googled him of course and it does indeed sound like he is a leading expert in this area and people say good things about him.
So, looks like a change of plans here and it’s time to get these damn fibroids out once and for all. I will call Dr. Brill right away and try to get surgery scheduled as soon as possible (one of the women on the fibroids listserv I am on had the same surgery with him and based on what she said I’m guessing it could be 6 weeks or so till I could get in for surgery). Then my uterus will need 3 months to heal before I can do IVF. When he told me this I was just so disappointed, because I was really gearing up to do the IVF right away and also because I don’t have any time to waste and 4 months feels like a long time.
So right now I’m feeling rather frustrated and confused. Well, that's an understatement. Really I am reeling and seething. How could I get such different measurements on my fibroids from the IVF doctor vs. my gyn. Could the largest one really have grown 2 centimeters in 2 weeks (The gyn told me it was 4, the IVF doctor says it’s 6)? Or is measuring through ultrasound just basically not very accurate, or vary widely depending on who is doing the measuring? (I asked the IVF doctor about this and he said that perhaps the gyn was just looking at another plane, but I think he may have just said that to be polite, esp. since he earlier said that the largest one is spherical, which according to my high school geometry means that all the planes are the same…) I'll share more information as I get it about how big my fibroids really are.
And how interesting that whereas my gyn thought I was fine to get pregnant with fibroids this size, the IVF doctor is not comfortable with it. (I guess it makes sense that if you are going to bother with IVF you would be more conservative.) It also makes me frustrated to think that all the fibroid-shrinking efforts may not have done any good after all, and that I have been wasting all this time when I could have gotten them out a long time ago. But, I know I have to stop beating myself up, and just move on.
Also, now I wonder about what I was originally told by my gyn, that due to where my fibroids are I am not a good candidate for myomectomy, that if they cut them out there would not be much uterus left. I guess we will see what the S.F. doctor says. Now I am kicking myself, perhaps in 12/07 when my gyn told me that I should have gotten a second opinion on operability. But she was so categorical about it that it didn’t seem like it would be worthwhile. Or maybe some of the shrinking work I have been doing has worked and has made it so that we can even contemplate surgery whereas in 12/07 my gyn thought it was not possible? (That’s kind of a stretch though to make myself feel better)
On the bright side, this gives us time to detox my husband’s mercury and lead and hopefully get his sperm in better shape. I’m also going to get my mercury fillings switched out ASAP and want to double-check to make sure every last bit of those heavy metals are gone from my system after the big detoxing I did in 2007.
So it looks like I need to focus on whatever fibroid shrinking I can do prior to surgery (my coach made me a special fibroid shrinking meditation tape and I will listen to it every day!), keeping my eggs happy in waiting until the fall, and on having a successful surgery and my uterus healing well after it. (I’ve never had surgery before, so am curious about what can be done energetically pre and post op that would be helpful…) I’ll also keep doing the stuff that Walter suggested to keep bonding with the spirit baby.
Ok, this is hard but I’m not giving up.
Not only is this news stressful and disappointing to me, I feel like I'm letting all of you down. I don't want to discourage anyone in their quest to shrink their fibroids naturally. Looking back on my situation, I think there are some reasons why I might not have had the success that I could have with my fibroid shrinking efforts.
1. One big reason is that it took me so long to learn what exactly one is supposed to, or can, do and not do, and eat and not eat. And what kind of things are effective or not effective. Unfortunately, it seemed like I had to go by trial and error, and many of the books or doctors I consulted did not really know what would be helpful and even steered me the wrong way in many cases. For example, vitex and progesterone cream may help some people but they were totally useless for me, and I'm particularly annoyed at the chiropractor who got me on the progesterone cream because now I'm reading it can even make fibroids worse. An acupuncturist I saw for a year and a half who claimed to have the answer turned out to not really know what to do about the fibroids after all. (We won't even talk about the first acupuncturist, who was really helpful at first but then got really flaky and left town right when I needed help the most...) When I first had the fibroids, I didn't have a good sense of how to apply the ideas in books like Healing Fibroids: A Doctor's Guide to a Natural Cure
to create a practical and balanced diet, so I ate too much tuna and got a mercury overload, and I didn't get enough iron so I got really anemic. It was all just too overwhelming and too much information to sort out and figure out how to really make work. I spent so much time muddling around, and at times felt so frustrated and alone in this that I couldn't deal with it and went back to eating "normally" (e.g. meat and dairy). Also if only I had known about abdominal massage and hula hooping, I could have been doing it every day for years. If only I knew all the things I know now when my fibroids were first discovered 5 years ago! I would have done things so much differently.
2. The last year and 4 months has been a particularly busy one for me both personal and work-wise, so that has interfered with being able to do all the things I would have liked to do. In particular I have been particularly lax on the exercise. If I had been able to hula hoop or belly dance for an hour a day, and get more exercise in general and spend more time on some of the mind-body work, maybe that would have made a difference. My lower abdomen still feels cool, which means I haven't succeeded in getting circulation going there sufficiently. What if I had...
3. One thing I have really learned through this is that it's very difficult to try to shrink fibroids while trying to conceive. During the luteal phase, you are not supposed to do the exact kind of things that would help shrink fibroids -- take strong Chinese herbs that are designed to bust up stagnation, do vigorous exercise that involves shaking, massage your abdomen, and take enzyme supplements that can help break down the fibrin. So half the time during the last nine months I have not been able to attack the fibroids with the full arsenal. Also to help boost fertility they give you extra estradiol and progesterone, which could make the fibroids grow and also they overload your liver which is not good for fibroids. Given my age, I rushed into trying to conceive as soon as I got the green light, so I haven't had the luxury of giving the fibroid shrinking the dedicated focus that it probably needs.
So, despite my current predicament, I still do believe this blog has value, and that what I have been doing has value, for the following reasons:
1. If I hadn't been doing all of this, heaven knows how big my fibroids would have been by now
2. I now know what needs to be done to prevent fibroids from growing, which will help me prevent them from returning post-myomectomy. Many people have to have myomectomy more than once, which seems incredibly sad to me. I'm hoping that with the work I have been doing, I have gotten to the root of the problem and can prevent a re-occurence.
3. I am hoping that someone out there who is in the position I was in 5 years ago, of first discovering that they have fibroids, can use this information to get rid of them or at least keep them from growing. According to the Chinese medicine literature, something can be done as long as your fibroids are less than 10 cm, as long as you can give it enough effort and enough time. In my case, I really don't have time, that is my problem. If I can help anyone else, it will make me feel better.
4. All the work I have been doing the past 1 year and 4 months has helped make me an overall happier and healthier person, and I've learned a lot of things that will help keep my husband and myself happier and healthier for years to come. I also think all this work has likely contributed to my antral follicle count being above average, because trying to get energy flow better for the fibroids also helps the eggs. As Walter Makichen told me, all the work I have been doing shows. I have to be happy about that.
which I found very compelling and very helpful, and in my wanting to leave no stone unturned in this journey I wanted to get his input and also of course find out if he could see a spirit baby (spirit of an unborn child) hanging out with me. (This is all a bit more way out than I normally get into, but I picked up the book without knowing what it was about and it really spoke to me…)He gave me lots of great info and insight (he was dead on about my personality and also my husband’s) and made me feel very optimistic about my chances of being able to have a baby. He gave me some personalized meditations/visualizations, and some suggestions of specific things to work on. The big thing though, that he said over and over in a kind of “wow!” tone of voice, was he was VERY impressed as he said that he can tell that I have done a lot of work on myself to get ready for getting pregnant, that my chakras were all hooked up well, etc. “Whatever you have been doing, it’s really working!”, he said “So these tools I’m giving you now, it’s really just fine tuning.” It's so nice to get some positive confirmation of all the efforts I have been making, that they have not been for naught. And he also said that he saw a spirit baby there, right in the pre-conception position which is the optimal place for it to be, it means it’s already bonding with me, so that is great news. (if you're curious about what this means, I suggest you read the book, it's fascinating...)
I was very impressed with Walter, he was so warm and supportive and perceptive. As part of my work, I coach and counsel people, and from a professional perspective I felt he was truly a first class example of how to advise someone effectively. I also feel like the exercises he gave me really work well. For example, I did one of them the next day when I was at the IVF clinic waiting in the examination room undressed, which normally is very stressful for me, but instead it made me really relaxed.
It was at the IVF clinic that I got the following news:
Good news 2:
The reason I went to the IVF doctor was for my antral follicle count, which they do to see how well your ovaries are likely to respond. He said there were 4-5 in the left ovary, and he couldn’t see the right ovary because a fibroid was in the way but he assumed it had the same number as the left, which would make a total of 8-10. He described this as “pretty good” and based on my looking on the internet, although this is a bit sub-optimal it is way above average for my age so that is something to be happy about I think.
Bad news:
The IVF doctor was not happy with my fibroids. He said, as others have, that there are 4-5 of them. He measured the three largest ones, and said that the biggest was 6.1 x 6.1 cm, the second largest was 4.1 x 4.8, and the third largest was 4.0 x 3.7. These measurements are a LOT larger than the figures that my gyn. gave me a couple of weeks ago. And in fact, never have I had any number over 5.2 for the biggest one, ever. So this was rather a shock, to say the least. He said that he wants them out before doing IVF. He recommended that I see a doctor in S.F. who specializes in doing myomectomy laproscopically so it’s minimally invasive. I googled him of course and it does indeed sound like he is a leading expert in this area and people say good things about him.
So, looks like a change of plans here and it’s time to get these damn fibroids out once and for all. I will call Dr. Brill right away and try to get surgery scheduled as soon as possible (one of the women on the fibroids listserv I am on had the same surgery with him and based on what she said I’m guessing it could be 6 weeks or so till I could get in for surgery). Then my uterus will need 3 months to heal before I can do IVF. When he told me this I was just so disappointed, because I was really gearing up to do the IVF right away and also because I don’t have any time to waste and 4 months feels like a long time.
So right now I’m feeling rather frustrated and confused. Well, that's an understatement. Really I am reeling and seething. How could I get such different measurements on my fibroids from the IVF doctor vs. my gyn. Could the largest one really have grown 2 centimeters in 2 weeks (The gyn told me it was 4, the IVF doctor says it’s 6)? Or is measuring through ultrasound just basically not very accurate, or vary widely depending on who is doing the measuring? (I asked the IVF doctor about this and he said that perhaps the gyn was just looking at another plane, but I think he may have just said that to be polite, esp. since he earlier said that the largest one is spherical, which according to my high school geometry means that all the planes are the same…) I'll share more information as I get it about how big my fibroids really are.
And how interesting that whereas my gyn thought I was fine to get pregnant with fibroids this size, the IVF doctor is not comfortable with it. (I guess it makes sense that if you are going to bother with IVF you would be more conservative.) It also makes me frustrated to think that all the fibroid-shrinking efforts may not have done any good after all, and that I have been wasting all this time when I could have gotten them out a long time ago. But, I know I have to stop beating myself up, and just move on.
Also, now I wonder about what I was originally told by my gyn, that due to where my fibroids are I am not a good candidate for myomectomy, that if they cut them out there would not be much uterus left. I guess we will see what the S.F. doctor says. Now I am kicking myself, perhaps in 12/07 when my gyn told me that I should have gotten a second opinion on operability. But she was so categorical about it that it didn’t seem like it would be worthwhile. Or maybe some of the shrinking work I have been doing has worked and has made it so that we can even contemplate surgery whereas in 12/07 my gyn thought it was not possible? (That’s kind of a stretch though to make myself feel better)
On the bright side, this gives us time to detox my husband’s mercury and lead and hopefully get his sperm in better shape. I’m also going to get my mercury fillings switched out ASAP and want to double-check to make sure every last bit of those heavy metals are gone from my system after the big detoxing I did in 2007.
So it looks like I need to focus on whatever fibroid shrinking I can do prior to surgery (my coach made me a special fibroid shrinking meditation tape and I will listen to it every day!), keeping my eggs happy in waiting until the fall, and on having a successful surgery and my uterus healing well after it. (I’ve never had surgery before, so am curious about what can be done energetically pre and post op that would be helpful…) I’ll also keep doing the stuff that Walter suggested to keep bonding with the spirit baby.
Ok, this is hard but I’m not giving up.
Not only is this news stressful and disappointing to me, I feel like I'm letting all of you down. I don't want to discourage anyone in their quest to shrink their fibroids naturally. Looking back on my situation, I think there are some reasons why I might not have had the success that I could have with my fibroid shrinking efforts.
1. One big reason is that it took me so long to learn what exactly one is supposed to, or can, do and not do, and eat and not eat. And what kind of things are effective or not effective. Unfortunately, it seemed like I had to go by trial and error, and many of the books or doctors I consulted did not really know what would be helpful and even steered me the wrong way in many cases. For example, vitex and progesterone cream may help some people but they were totally useless for me, and I'm particularly annoyed at the chiropractor who got me on the progesterone cream because now I'm reading it can even make fibroids worse. An acupuncturist I saw for a year and a half who claimed to have the answer turned out to not really know what to do about the fibroids after all. (We won't even talk about the first acupuncturist, who was really helpful at first but then got really flaky and left town right when I needed help the most...) When I first had the fibroids, I didn't have a good sense of how to apply the ideas in books like Healing Fibroids: A Doctor's Guide to a Natural Cure
to create a practical and balanced diet, so I ate too much tuna and got a mercury overload, and I didn't get enough iron so I got really anemic. It was all just too overwhelming and too much information to sort out and figure out how to really make work. I spent so much time muddling around, and at times felt so frustrated and alone in this that I couldn't deal with it and went back to eating "normally" (e.g. meat and dairy). Also if only I had known about abdominal massage and hula hooping, I could have been doing it every day for years. If only I knew all the things I know now when my fibroids were first discovered 5 years ago! I would have done things so much differently.2. The last year and 4 months has been a particularly busy one for me both personal and work-wise, so that has interfered with being able to do all the things I would have liked to do. In particular I have been particularly lax on the exercise. If I had been able to hula hoop or belly dance for an hour a day, and get more exercise in general and spend more time on some of the mind-body work, maybe that would have made a difference. My lower abdomen still feels cool, which means I haven't succeeded in getting circulation going there sufficiently. What if I had...
3. One thing I have really learned through this is that it's very difficult to try to shrink fibroids while trying to conceive. During the luteal phase, you are not supposed to do the exact kind of things that would help shrink fibroids -- take strong Chinese herbs that are designed to bust up stagnation, do vigorous exercise that involves shaking, massage your abdomen, and take enzyme supplements that can help break down the fibrin. So half the time during the last nine months I have not been able to attack the fibroids with the full arsenal. Also to help boost fertility they give you extra estradiol and progesterone, which could make the fibroids grow and also they overload your liver which is not good for fibroids. Given my age, I rushed into trying to conceive as soon as I got the green light, so I haven't had the luxury of giving the fibroid shrinking the dedicated focus that it probably needs.
So, despite my current predicament, I still do believe this blog has value, and that what I have been doing has value, for the following reasons:
1. If I hadn't been doing all of this, heaven knows how big my fibroids would have been by now
2. I now know what needs to be done to prevent fibroids from growing, which will help me prevent them from returning post-myomectomy. Many people have to have myomectomy more than once, which seems incredibly sad to me. I'm hoping that with the work I have been doing, I have gotten to the root of the problem and can prevent a re-occurence.
3. I am hoping that someone out there who is in the position I was in 5 years ago, of first discovering that they have fibroids, can use this information to get rid of them or at least keep them from growing. According to the Chinese medicine literature, something can be done as long as your fibroids are less than 10 cm, as long as you can give it enough effort and enough time. In my case, I really don't have time, that is my problem. If I can help anyone else, it will make me feel better.
4. All the work I have been doing the past 1 year and 4 months has helped make me an overall happier and healthier person, and I've learned a lot of things that will help keep my husband and myself happier and healthier for years to come. I also think all this work has likely contributed to my antral follicle count being above average, because trying to get energy flow better for the fibroids also helps the eggs. As Walter Makichen told me, all the work I have been doing shows. I have to be happy about that.
One last thing. I have just been reading the book Energy Medicine for Women: Aligning Your Body's Energies to Boost Your Health and Vitality, which is so fantastic I can hardly put it down. (Again, if I had only known then...) I will put a fuller review in this blog soon as there is a bunch of helpful info for fibroid shrinkers in there. But one thing I should mention that is in that book, despite her feeling that energy medicine is so fabulous, the author acknowledges its limitations, and as her example of this tells the story of her daughter. She had terrible fibroids and had all the best energy healers work on her, but they just kept growing and growing till she had to have them out surgically. The author tells the whole story of the surgery and it's fascinating. Perhaps my situation is like that too, where despite my aversion to surgery I just need to get some help getting rid of them. One of the things that Walter Makichen told me is that I have the tendency to put out a lot of energy helping others, and of not taking in enough help from others. So true. Maybe now I need to let the doctors help me rather than thinking I have to do everything in life on my own...
Sorry for the rather long post, just trying to make peace with this as I'm rather freaked out right now.
Sorry for the rather long post, just trying to make peace with this as I'm rather freaked out right now.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
new herbal remedy
(It is targeted at the liver and spleen (two organs particularly related to fibroid issues). Many of the ingredients are familiar fibroid-busters. I was taking a different brand of this last fall (it's also called Jia Wei Xiao Yao San).
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Santa Cruz Hagaddah
So, I'm sure you are wondering, what does a Hagaddah have to do with fibroids? Or, if you are not Jewish, you are more likely wondering, what the heck is a Haggadah?
The Haggadah is the book that is used for the meal/service called the Seder that Jews (and this year President Obama too!) participate in during the holiday of Passover. The Hagaddah tells the story of the Jews' liberation from Egypt.
To be honest, I always felt that the Haggadah was pretty dry and boring, and struggled to find its relevance for me.
Then this year I went to a seder in Santa Cruz, and my hosts were using a photocopied cobbled-together Haggadah. I was completely fascinated by it, it really spoke to me. It talked a lot about liberating yourself, asked thought-provoking questions and even quoted Martin Luther King Jr's Mountaintop speech which never fails to bring tears to my eyes and of course is so appropriate for Passover. I thought to myself, this reads a lot more like the various books I've been reading in my fibroid-shrinking quest than it does a typical Haggadah! I was actually disappointed that we went through it quickly (whereas normally I'm happy to rush through the service to get to the food.)
I asked my hosts about it and it turns out the parts that appealed to me were from the aptly named Santa Cruz Haggadah. For those of you who don't know Santa Cruz, it's the epitome of what people in the rest of the country think of when they think of California -- a town full of surfers, vegans, and spiritually aware folk.
I looked it up on the web, and here it is!I also found this description which I think describes it well: In addition to acknowledging the historical Exodus, The Santa Cruz Haggadah pays attention to the idea that it is up to us to heal the planet (Tikkun Olam) and free ourselves from whatever holds us back from being the best people we can be. In essence, it nurtures a very interactive seder that encourages personal liberation. Using this haggadah ensures a Seder that is deep, high and fun; meaningful, joyous and memorable for all who participate.
If you are looking for an alternative to the regular Haggadah that feels more integrated with the personal growth you have been trying to do, this is it. This would also be of interest as general reading for to those who are interested in tying their religious beliefs to the emotional work they are doing. (The Leader's Edition
evidently has extra thought-provoking questions too)
The Haggadah is the book that is used for the meal/service called the Seder that Jews (and this year President Obama too!) participate in during the holiday of Passover. The Hagaddah tells the story of the Jews' liberation from Egypt.
To be honest, I always felt that the Haggadah was pretty dry and boring, and struggled to find its relevance for me.
Then this year I went to a seder in Santa Cruz, and my hosts were using a photocopied cobbled-together Haggadah. I was completely fascinated by it, it really spoke to me. It talked a lot about liberating yourself, asked thought-provoking questions and even quoted Martin Luther King Jr's Mountaintop speech which never fails to bring tears to my eyes and of course is so appropriate for Passover. I thought to myself, this reads a lot more like the various books I've been reading in my fibroid-shrinking quest than it does a typical Haggadah! I was actually disappointed that we went through it quickly (whereas normally I'm happy to rush through the service to get to the food.)
I asked my hosts about it and it turns out the parts that appealed to me were from the aptly named Santa Cruz Haggadah. For those of you who don't know Santa Cruz, it's the epitome of what people in the rest of the country think of when they think of California -- a town full of surfers, vegans, and spiritually aware folk.
I looked it up on the web, and here it is!
I also found this description which I think describes it well: In addition to acknowledging the historical Exodus, The Santa Cruz Haggadah pays attention to the idea that it is up to us to heal the planet (Tikkun Olam) and free ourselves from whatever holds us back from being the best people we can be. In essence, it nurtures a very interactive seder that encourages personal liberation. Using this haggadah ensures a Seder that is deep, high and fun; meaningful, joyous and memorable for all who participate.If you are looking for an alternative to the regular Haggadah that feels more integrated with the personal growth you have been trying to do, this is it. This would also be of interest as general reading for to those who are interested in tying their religious beliefs to the emotional work they are doing. (The Leader's Edition
evidently has extra thought-provoking questions too) Thursday, April 16, 2009
black currant seed oil
My acupuncturist has switched me from borage oil to black currant seed oil. It's for the same purpose as it provides the same kinds of fats. It's just because the brand of supplements she carries discontinued the borage oil, no other major reason.
This kind of supplement is recommended for fibroid sufferers because it supplies gamma-linoleic acid (GLA).
More info here on black currant seed oil.
. It's for the same purpose as it provides the same kinds of fats. It's just because the brand of supplements she carries discontinued the borage oil, no other major reason.This kind of supplement is recommended for fibroid sufferers because it supplies gamma-linoleic acid (GLA).
More info here on black currant seed oil.
more bad news on mercury -- sperm issues
My husband's sperm are not great and my acupuncturist has been trying to figure out why. She had him do a fancy urine test from Metametrix that showed he was under oxidative stress. What might that be, she thought. So she did a heavy metals test, and up popped mercury, level so elevated that it was touching the top of the chart. Yikes!
Turns out, mercury is terrible for sperm. Read about it here.
My husband has several mercury fillings. He had most of them removed last summer, and is going to get the last two removed soon. We will then need to have him do a detox. My acupuncturist thinks that it could take up to 6 months to get his sperm looking better.
Fortunately for our baby-making plans, we are going to try IVF. We had a consult yesterday with the head of the clinic, and he recommended using ICSI, which is where they put the sperm directly into the egg to make sure it fertilizes, so they don't need a huge number of good sperm. Evidently they sort through the sperm to find the best ones. But still...
Wow, this issue of mercury really should be more common knowledge. I had looked all over the web for things that were supposed to affect sperm motility, but somehow had missed this. Maybe people don't know about it. But indeed there was a study proving the link. Ugh, I wish I had known about this sooner....To be honest it makes me really angry, that two leading urologists and two other acupuncturists before this one did not think to look at this.
Please spread the word. If you know anyone trying to get pregnant and their husband's sperm doesn't seem to improve no matter what they do, tell them about this!!!
Turns out, mercury is terrible for sperm. Read about it here.
My husband has several mercury fillings. He had most of them removed last summer, and is going to get the last two removed soon. We will then need to have him do a detox. My acupuncturist thinks that it could take up to 6 months to get his sperm looking better.
Fortunately for our baby-making plans, we are going to try IVF. We had a consult yesterday with the head of the clinic, and he recommended using ICSI, which is where they put the sperm directly into the egg to make sure it fertilizes, so they don't need a huge number of good sperm. Evidently they sort through the sperm to find the best ones. But still...
Wow, this issue of mercury really should be more common knowledge. I had looked all over the web for things that were supposed to affect sperm motility, but somehow had missed this. Maybe people don't know about it. But indeed there was a study proving the link. Ugh, I wish I had known about this sooner....To be honest it makes me really angry, that two leading urologists and two other acupuncturists before this one did not think to look at this.
Please spread the word. If you know anyone trying to get pregnant and their husband's sperm doesn't seem to improve no matter what they do, tell them about this!!!
new Chinese herb formula
My latest Chinese herbal formula is Wen Jing Tang, which is supposed to help fibroids. It is warming and dispels stagnation. Complete contents and indications are explained on this page. My acupuncturist keeps coming up with interesting stuff. I like that she is using something different each time based on what is going on with me -- that's how it should be.
Thursday, April 9, 2009
join me on Sat. in S.F. for a Medicinal Qigong for Fertility class
I'm really excited about this Medicinal Qigong for Fertility class that I'm going to take this Saturday. If you are in the San Francisco area, please join me!
The instructor is the author of Heal Yourself With Qigong, which looks fabulous I am thinking of getting it. I took a QiGong class and loved it, but going to classes doesn't fit well into my schedule, and so far I have not been impressed with the QiGong DVDs that I have tried (I am going to ask her for her recommendations, but her book seems like the obvious place to start).
The instructor is the author of Heal Yourself With Qigong, which looks fabulous I am thinking of getting it. I took a QiGong class and loved it, but going to classes doesn't fit well into my schedule, and so far I have not been impressed with the QiGong DVDs that I have tried (I am going to ask her for her recommendations, but her book seems like the obvious place to start).
If anyone is indeed thinking of going, please add a comment letting me know, and I'll let you know how to identify me!
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
new herbal remedy
My latest herbal remedy is Jiang Tang.
It's a strengthening remedy for fertility. According to google searching, mixed with other things it's used for fibroids too. My acupuncturist was in a hurry so I don't think she wrote down the complete ingredient list.
She did tell me however that she threw some deer antler in, another strengthener.
Basically we are working on my kidneys and liver right now!
It's a strengthening remedy for fertility. According to google searching, mixed with other things it's used for fibroids too. My acupuncturist was in a hurry so I don't think she wrote down the complete ingredient list.
She did tell me however that she threw some deer antler in, another strengthener.
Basically we are working on my kidneys and liver right now!
Saturday, April 4, 2009
acupuncture for fibroids in Cuba
Found this interesting article on acupuncture being used for fibroids in Cuba. Note that they report improvement in the fibroids after just three sessions (they didn't say how much however) http://www.cubanews.ain.cu/2009/0403fibromasuterinos.htm
Friday, April 3, 2009
new ultrasound results -- some shrinkage!
Good news today. My gyn does an ultrasound monthly to check on my eggs, and it's usually hard to get her to focus on the fibroids other than saying "they are still there, they are pretty much the same." But today got her to do a thorough survey of them, first time have done that since my old gyn did one in 9/08. And I am happy to report that I have achieved some shrinkage (although one is growing)
The stats (in cm):
Type .................9/08.......... 4/09
Intramural ..........5.2........... 4
Intramural ..........2.8.......... 3.5
Submucosal ..........2.7 .........2.3
Posterior............. 3.2 ............3
The 5th one was in shadows today she could not see it to measure it, in 9/08 it was 3.5
I really needed this encouragement! It's nice to get good news, while at the same time want to keep working to make them go away!
The stats (in cm):
Type .................9/08.......... 4/09
Intramural ..........5.2........... 4
Intramural ..........2.8.......... 3.5
Submucosal ..........2.7 .........2.3
Posterior............. 3.2 ............3
The 5th one was in shadows today she could not see it to measure it, in 9/08 it was 3.5
I really needed this encouragement! It's nice to get good news, while at the same time want to keep working to make them go away!
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
my current herb formula
My acupuncturist gave me a real fibroid-busting herb formula this month, Shao Fu Zhu Yu Tang, otherwise known as "abdominal statis relief". This page shows the formula, although she gave me powder not pills. This page on Chinese medicine for fibroids talks about use of this formula. So does this page, talking about how it's for "stubborn cases." Sounds like me!
update
Hello everyone, thought I would update you. Last month unfortunately did not meet with success, despite having had three eggs going due to ovarian stimulation. The frustrating thing about this process is that who knows why? Is it my fibroids? My husband's sperm (which have their issues)? The age of my eggs?
Am taking this month off of stimulation to get more testing -- from my gyn on immune factors, and from my acupuncturist who is having me take a fancy urine test that can find hidden issues (she thinks I may have an ammonia buildup due to issues in my urea cycle, which may be affecting implantation).
Also am going to be adding a couple of things to my regimen this month -- better addressing my pH levels, and working on my lymph system. Those should help both for the fibroids and for fertility. Will write more about both later. From last month's experiments, am going to be continuing with the Psych-K and regular chiropractic visits as I found both of those to be helpful.
Also am working with my husband to get a better routine for us with an earlier bedtime. It's not easy reforming two inveterate night owls, but it's important I think.
Am taking this month off of stimulation to get more testing -- from my gyn on immune factors, and from my acupuncturist who is having me take a fancy urine test that can find hidden issues (she thinks I may have an ammonia buildup due to issues in my urea cycle, which may be affecting implantation).
Also am going to be adding a couple of things to my regimen this month -- better addressing my pH levels, and working on my lymph system. Those should help both for the fibroids and for fertility. Will write more about both later. From last month's experiments, am going to be continuing with the Psych-K and regular chiropractic visits as I found both of those to be helpful.
Also am working with my husband to get a better routine for us with an earlier bedtime. It's not easy reforming two inveterate night owls, but it's important I think.
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